My job

As I'm sure you're all aware I'm the director of Martin Luther dayschool in Giddings (and have a fabulous assistant Jennifer!!!).  I personally struggle with myself all the time about working here, let me explain.  I LOVE MY JOB...seriously.  I love this job because I get to hang around kids all day, I love that when I walk into the 3 year old room they all come running and give me a hug and some even tell me that they love me or they miss me (even though I may have seen them yesterday!).  I love that it is so flexible, if I have to leave for anything during the day I can, or if I have to take off an entire day for something I know that I have a reliable person with me in the office and I can call her to fill in.  I love handling all the dilemmas that arise throughout the day, I don't like the big stressful ones of course but I like that EVERY day is different and EVERY day is challenging, we rarely sit here and twiddle our thumbs.  I'm sure you're thinking this is the perfect job and that I don't have any complaints...HA!  I could go on and on about the things I don't like, like the pay or the lack of benefits or the unnecessary drama that arises with the parents or the employees or having everyone watch your every move, but I won't (just know that there are some).

I've always said that anyone who can afford to stay home with their children, go for it!  I think it's a wonderful opportunity if you are financially able.  But I've also always preached that once your family is not financially able to do so, then you should really consider finding a job to help support your family to make sure their basic needs are met and taken care of.  This is a personal opinion and anyone can completely disagree with me or have their own opinion entirely, I'm just stating what I personally believe.  So obviously my favorite thing about working here is that I will be able to take our baby girl (still no name!) to work with me on the days that I do work, and yet will still have some days during the week where I can spend quality time with her at home (I know those days will probably consist of me cleaning and picking up, but it's nice to think about!).  I am planning to breastfeed for at least the first year, so whenever she needs to eat I can just walk to her room and feed her.  Or if she gets sick I can just take her home without having to ask to take off for my sick child.  And, I get discounted child care!  Not much, but it will help.  I do feel really fortunate that this job fell into my lap a year ago because of the flexibility and because I can take our child with me to work.  But...at the same time I kick myself every day because I'm not doing what I'm passionate about and what I went to school for.  I know that it's very rare that what you get a degree in is what you'll actually end up doing, but I want so much to become a counselor or psychologist.  And I know that one day I may be able to achieve it, but I hate having that nasty feeling in my gut when I think about what I could be doing with my life.  And of course if I actually went into my field of interest I could be making triple of what I'm bringing home now, but that means that I would have to drive at least an hour every day for work and I would have to leave my baby.  I hate feeling like this, and I'm sure once the baby comes it will be much clearer what I want to do :)  I keep telling myself that where Colton and I are right now in our lives, it's the perfect job, but I will practice what I preach and if it just becomes too tight financially for us I will definitely be looking for a full-time job.