Dr. Appointment

Well I figured it would happen.  My doctor wants me to cut back on work as much as possible.  I talked with her about how I've been feeling and she even suggested putting me on anxiety medicine but I refused that option.  I'm not saying that I would never be open to it if it ever got to that point, but I don't think I need to right now.  She also told me some foods to eat that may help too. 

I explained to her the nature of my job and that it may actually stress me out more to be away from the daycare.  It was kind of ironic that I was explaining about working even though I'm not at "work" and my phone is just buzzing away in my bag next to me.  She could hear it and said "work I assume?"  I just smiled and said "probably."  I told her I honestly don't know the solution to ease my stress level at work, but I'll do the best I can.  She told me that if it continues that I need to call and they'll possibly run tests to eliminate other possibilities.  I'm going to try very hard to not let it get to that point.

I also explained the bump on my pubic bone.  Once she had a look she said it's definitely not swollen lymph nodes, that it does feel like a small hernia.  Wonderful.  She said right now there's nothing they can do since I'm pregnant, the only solution is to wait it out until after I deliver and see if it goes away on it's own.  She said that those kind of hernias are pretty uncommon but of course do happen.  She said that after I deliver and it hasn't gone away they'll probably refer me to a general surgeon to check it out.  Aaarrrgghh!!!  Please please please go away little hernia!

Anyway, on a cuter note :)

Absolutely LOVE this girl.

Pregnancy update

I realized that I haven't posted anything in a while about this baby.

It moves ALL the time.  I don't remember Korbyn moving like this at all.  I'll be 26 weeks tomorrow and I feel like this baby is so huge already.  When it moves it's almost painful sometimes, although I know it's really not because everything is measuring normal.

I have my next dr. appointment on the 31st and I get to do my glucose test, yay.  I also have some questions for my doctor this time around.  For the past couple of weeks I've had these little "episodes."  I'm not doing anything in particular but I can feel it coming on.  My heart starts beating extremely fast, like it could pound right out of my chest.  I feel like I can't breathe very well and the only way to breathe is to take deep breaths and if I don't sit down it feels like my legs could give out from underneath me.  All of this only lasts for about a minute and I can continue to have a conversation with somebody, and then that's it, I feel fine.

For example, yesterday morning I was just putting on my makeup and I could feel it coming on.  I grabbed my watch and timed my pulse, it got to 145 bpm!   Yesterday it happened two times and the day before that it happened three.  On top of that, I've been having a pain down by my pubic bone for several months.  I assumed it was just part of pregnancy pains of everything growing and stretching.  But the day after my last appointment, on the 3rd, I noticed that there is now a gradual bump, and it seems to be getting bigger.  If I touch it it's tender, but not painful and that's about it.  Other than that it doesn't bother me, but the bump I think is what's concerning me.

So I called my doctor's office yesterday to let them know what's been going on since I still had a week until my next appointment, I don't think I spoke with the most knowledgeable nurse.  She basically told me that as long as my vision isn't blurring I'm fine and that the bump could be an ingrown hair to just apply heat to it...what!?  Lady, this is not an ingrown hair.  I just thanked her and hung up, thankfully I'll see my doctor in a week and I can get everything checked out.

After speaking with my sister-in-law about it, she said it sounds like I could be having panic attacks.  I told her that nothing is even happening though when they come on.  She said she went through a phase where she was having them and ended up going to the ER for it.  She said they told her it's just our body's way of reacting to stress.  Me, stressed?  Ha!  When I think about it there isn't just one thing that stresses me out, I guess it's all the little things that are just adding up. 

Work is my biggest stress by far.  It's getting to the point where it's all I think about 24/7, I even dream about it every night.  But I really love what I do, and I'm not planning on giving it up anytime soon.  My sister-in-law happens to work in a church/school/daycare office.  She was telling me that their director just recently retired and it was just because of the constant stress.  She told her that she's just done having to worry ALL the time, it's exhausting.  I definitely know how she feels, but I couldn't imagine myself anywhere else right now.  Hopefully my doctor will not tell me that I'll have to "slow down" in regards to work.  Even if I cut down on actual work hours it won't help.  For instance, I'm off today but have already had to deal with daycare stuff since 8 a.m. this morning and it hasn't stopped.  And it seems like when I'm not there to handle it myself I tend to worry more about it.  So I don't really know what the solution would be.  A long vacation where there's no phone reception and my little family right next to me would probably do the trick :)

My goofballs

 These two are obviously related.  They are both so goofy!  She has become such a daddy's girl here lately.  And I know it's because he plays with her ALL the time and she just eats it up.  I'm so thankful that he's so good with her, it will make things a lot easier once the baby comes.

 She told me yesterday morning in the car on the way to school that "I know memaw loves me, but daddy is the best.  Daddy plays with me."  Melted my heart to hear her talk like that!  Every morning that she wakes up a little too late to see Colton before he leaves, she asks me "where's daddy?" (in a very sad voice) I tell her that he had to go to work already but he gave you a kiss before he left and he loves you.  Then she continues to mope around for a little bit until something else distracts her.

Mom car

We got rid of the gas guzzler and got a Ford Explorer.  I feel like such a mom driving this car. 

The Tahoe was fun to drive but man did it like to drink the gas.  We went camping where I had to pull the boat and at one point I looked down at the instant fuel economy and it said "3 mpg!"  After that I decided it was probably time to get something a little more fuel efficient and lower to the ground to get two kids in and out of more easily.  We sold the Tahoe to the boyfriend of a girl that works at the daycare.  I told her one day that we were thinking about selling it and the next day he came to my office with a check in hand for what we were asking for it.  So we really couldn't turn the deal away.

We debated on me driving Colton's truck and him just getting something small to go back and forth to work in.  After a month of not having my own vehicle and having to drive his truck my mind was made up, I wanted an SUV again.  His truck is so long and hard to park and high off the ground, not the best for a prego with a toddler. 

I looked and researched and when we came across this car online I called the dealer and told him if he would sell it for what I offered him I would come right now.  He called me back ten minutes later and said "deal."  We got a pretty good price for it I have to admit.  Whoever the first owner was custom ordered a lot of the stuff so it's by far the fanciest car I've ever driven.  To this day though I sit in it and feel overwhelmed!  There's so much flippin technology they put in these cars now it's insane.

Korbyn really likes it too.  I tried explaining to her that we sold the white car and now we drive this one.  She'll still ask me where the white car is.  It has the dual sunroof and she is very adamant about having the covers open ALL the time.  She doesn't quite understand that it's 103 degrees outside, and in Texas we keep the sun away as much as possible!

Overall I'm extremely happy with it so far and plan to hang on to it for quite some time.

Splashway

 This past weekend we camped at the Splashway RV park in Sheridan for Colton's birthday.  Mark, Avery, and Addy camped with us Friday night and Doug and Loranne met up with us Saturday morning when we went over to the water park.

 Friday evening when we got there they had it set up for the kids to make animal masks and then make s'mores by the fishing pond.

 Then Ray came...Ray is the mascot for Splashway and while all the other kids ran up to hug him, Korbyn had a look of sheer terror on her face.  She literally was panicking when she saw him.  She started screaming "I want daddy!  Take me to daddy!"  So after Ray arrived I could not put Korbyn down because she was so fearful that he was going to get her.  I have no clue where this fear of things in costumes came from.  She did the exact same thing with the Easter bunny and Santa!

 It was a little warm to roast marshmallows, but the girls really enjoyed it.

 We were walking back to the camper and the girls were all quiet eating their s'mores when I hear Korbyn say "Avy, are you scared of da sun?"  Avery said "No Korbyn I'm not scared."  Then Korbyn said "Oh...mommy Avy not scared of da sun!"  I told her that the sun is very nice and she shouldn't be scared of him.  Then the whole weekend she kept telling me that the sun was nice and if she sees him she's going to give him a hug.  I'm glad we didn't have another chance to put that to the test.

 The girls had so much fun spending the weekend together.  And Korbyn really surprised me at how much she loved the water park!  The lazy river seemed to be her favorite, but she really got into going down the little kiddie slides and when daddy was with her, she went down the larger big kid slides.  Overall we had a blast and that is definitely a trip I would take again.