Pregnancy update

I realized that I haven't posted anything in a while about this baby.

It moves ALL the time.  I don't remember Korbyn moving like this at all.  I'll be 26 weeks tomorrow and I feel like this baby is so huge already.  When it moves it's almost painful sometimes, although I know it's really not because everything is measuring normal.

I have my next dr. appointment on the 31st and I get to do my glucose test, yay.  I also have some questions for my doctor this time around.  For the past couple of weeks I've had these little "episodes."  I'm not doing anything in particular but I can feel it coming on.  My heart starts beating extremely fast, like it could pound right out of my chest.  I feel like I can't breathe very well and the only way to breathe is to take deep breaths and if I don't sit down it feels like my legs could give out from underneath me.  All of this only lasts for about a minute and I can continue to have a conversation with somebody, and then that's it, I feel fine.

For example, yesterday morning I was just putting on my makeup and I could feel it coming on.  I grabbed my watch and timed my pulse, it got to 145 bpm!   Yesterday it happened two times and the day before that it happened three.  On top of that, I've been having a pain down by my pubic bone for several months.  I assumed it was just part of pregnancy pains of everything growing and stretching.  But the day after my last appointment, on the 3rd, I noticed that there is now a gradual bump, and it seems to be getting bigger.  If I touch it it's tender, but not painful and that's about it.  Other than that it doesn't bother me, but the bump I think is what's concerning me.

So I called my doctor's office yesterday to let them know what's been going on since I still had a week until my next appointment, I don't think I spoke with the most knowledgeable nurse.  She basically told me that as long as my vision isn't blurring I'm fine and that the bump could be an ingrown hair to just apply heat to it...what!?  Lady, this is not an ingrown hair.  I just thanked her and hung up, thankfully I'll see my doctor in a week and I can get everything checked out.

After speaking with my sister-in-law about it, she said it sounds like I could be having panic attacks.  I told her that nothing is even happening though when they come on.  She said she went through a phase where she was having them and ended up going to the ER for it.  She said they told her it's just our body's way of reacting to stress.  Me, stressed?  Ha!  When I think about it there isn't just one thing that stresses me out, I guess it's all the little things that are just adding up. 

Work is my biggest stress by far.  It's getting to the point where it's all I think about 24/7, I even dream about it every night.  But I really love what I do, and I'm not planning on giving it up anytime soon.  My sister-in-law happens to work in a church/school/daycare office.  She was telling me that their director just recently retired and it was just because of the constant stress.  She told her that she's just done having to worry ALL the time, it's exhausting.  I definitely know how she feels, but I couldn't imagine myself anywhere else right now.  Hopefully my doctor will not tell me that I'll have to "slow down" in regards to work.  Even if I cut down on actual work hours it won't help.  For instance, I'm off today but have already had to deal with daycare stuff since 8 a.m. this morning and it hasn't stopped.  And it seems like when I'm not there to handle it myself I tend to worry more about it.  So I don't really know what the solution would be.  A long vacation where there's no phone reception and my little family right next to me would probably do the trick :)