Baby blues

 This is how Korbyn likes to sleep!  I'm sure tons of newborns sleep like this, but it's funny because this is how Colton and I both like to sleep.  We both like to sprawl out.  Needless to say a queen size bed for the two of us is WAY too small.  She is also a really light sleeper, which I think she gets from me (she has to get something from me!).  Colton can ONLY fall asleep in a bed or on a couch, for some reason he can't go to sleep like in a car or something but once he's asleep, he's out.  An earthquake could be taking place outside and he wouldn't even know it if he was asleep.  Whenever she wakes up at night to eat, he never hears either one of us get up.  I'm just the opposite.  I can pretty much fall asleep anywhere I need to, but wake at the tiniest noise, which makes it easy to hear her first little hunger noises at night :)

We just came back from the Beisert thanksgiving.  Her head is finally getting big enough to support the crochet headbands.  This is actually the first one that she has worn, but of course it didn't last long because it kept falling off.  Colton said she looked like a turkey with that big bow on her head...I think it's ADORABLE!

So I definitely had, still kind of have, a case of the baby blues.  Whoever said that having a newborn is the happiest time in your life must be the most annoying person in the world!  This has been the most stressful and hardest time of my entire life.  I definitely find myself not wanting to deal with it all on some days, I'm not talking scary suicidal thoughts or anything like that, just wanting someone to come over and take care of her while I leave for an entire day.  Trust me, I love her more than words can describe, and I know a lot of feeling like this has to do with my hormones and it will get easier with time.  In fact, I can already tell a difference.  It was SO hard that first full week being home, and honestly I think it had to do with people coming to visit.  I enjoyed every second of every visitor that we had, and I know Colton did because he would ask for people to come over, it was so nice to have adult conversations with all of our guests.  But looking back it was really hard for Colton and I to get adjusted and I'm sure it was hard for her too with people coming and going those first few days.  Now that we seem to be back in our normal routine, we all seem to be doing a lot better.  We're still trying to figure each other out, but with each day it gets much easier :)