Sad day

Yesterday was my last day at the daycare :(

This was the hardest decision I've ever had to make in my life and I still don't feel that it was the right one at times.  I got this job right out of college and my sister-in-law had called me and said they just got rid of their director, got an interim director and she's looking for an assistant to get everything straightened out (because the most recent one had literally left things in shambles).  I became the assistant director in June and the lady who was brought on temporarily as director asked me if I was interested in becoming the director because she didn't want to do it.  I immediately told her no because I kind of had an idea of what it involved and it was one of those jobs where you had to immerse yourself in.  She probably asked me three more times before I finally had enough time to think it over and decided that I would take a few more classes online and get my director's license, and by January I was the director.  For the time being it was the perfect job for me.  I was about to get married and didn't have any kids yet so I could give 100% of myself to the daycare and get it back on the right tracks.  Colton and I knew that I probably wouldn't be able to stay there forever because the pay wasn't great and the stress level was extremely high but for the time being it worked.  Ever since I've been there I've known that I could be making more money somewhere else but I didn't want to leave because I LOVED this job.  The more time I have to think about it I really feel that this is my passion.  I loved getting to work at 7 and leaving at 6, I know I know call me crazy but I enjoyed spending time at my job.  I loved seeing the kids every day and even though I didn't like dealing with a lot of the drama that came up with parents and employees, I still could honestly say that I loved getting out of bed every morning and going to work and I know not many people can honestly say that.

But ever since Korbyn was born I've had this instinctual feeling that I need to be providing more.  Yes, my paycheck helped pay some bills and yes, I was able to take Korbyn to work with me but I always had this feeling in my gut that I needed to be doing more.  And on top of all that, I was kind of starting to get burnt out.  I hate to say it but I was.  I still enjoyed the job, but even my mom told me when I was discussing this with her that she knew I wouldn't be there too long because she knew I would get burnt out.  She said every time she would talk to me I would be talking about the daycare or having to answer my phone regarding work and she said she saw me pour myself into this place and she knew eventually it would have to end.

So I slowly started looking for a new job and amazingly in two days I had landed one.  On Tuesday I will be a new employee at Insurance Network of Texas...bleh.  I'm not excited AT ALL.  I don't know the first thing about insurance!  But they said that they'll train me and get me up to speed on everything of course.  I keep telling myself that I need to do this so I know I'm NOT meant for it.  But, this job means that I'll have benefits (which I didn't have before), and Korbyn and I couldn't get on Colton's because it would cost over $1,000/month to add her and myself...can you believe that?!?!  I'll be bringing in more money and I won't have the stress.  So I think there will be some good things and bad things, mainly just getting adjusted to a completely different atmosphere.  But we'll see how it goes.