Sunday, January 22, 2012

Test results...

My test was scheduled for 5:00 p.m. and check in no later than 4:30 otherwise my test fees would be forfeited and I would be turned away.  I left my house at 3 (we live an hour away) thinking that would be plenty of time.  My gps in my car is infamous for giving slightly off directions so I put the address in on my car and in my phone just to be safe.  Well wouldn't you know they ended up being both wrong!  The road that the building was on is nothing but parking lots and buildings with no names, and this road had to be 3 miles long.  I turned down it and immediately thought "oh crap."  So I pulled into a random lot hoping to see a sign or something and lo and behold I saw a patrol officer writing out tickets to parked cars and I knew he would be able to help me.  I pull up next to him and show him my paper with the building name and address and he said "ma'am I'm sorry, I have to be honest, I have absolutely no idea what any of these buildings are, but I think the general services building (the one I needed) is in lot 88, I was in 35!  Once I get to that lot I saw that there was a pay station that you had to put your receipt on your dash so not to get a ticket.  The darn thing would not read my card and I never carry cash with me.  At this point my anxiety level is so high because I just know that I'm not going to make it in time, it was already 4:20 and I didn't even know if this was the right building or not!  So it finally reads my card and I go in asking where to go because for some reason there are NO signs anywhere!  I make it into the testing area and I probably had to read the first question ten times before I actually comprehend what it's asking me.  There were 135 questions and I had five hours to take the test.  About half way through I quickly realized that I was having to guess on almost every question.  There were maybe only 10 questions where I was absolutely sure of myself.  So three hours later I just knew that I had failed.  I called Colton to tell him I was on my way home and told him that I would probably be having to retest because there were just way too many of them that I didn't know.  I even teared up a little bit on the way home because I felt like I had already failed.

I knew I could get my scores within 7 to 10 days so I was checking it every single day.  Yesterday I was on the phone with Colton and I was checking it again and I opened it and said "oh my gosh I passed!!!"  I immediately started bawling because it was like this huge weight was lifted.  I realized that I can do this and I do know the material, I just am really hard on myself sometimes.  In fact, when I called Colton right after I took the test and we were talking about how I'm probably going to have to retake it he was like "oh well, if you fail you can just take it again."  I said "no no no, you don't understand, I DON'T fail at things like this!"

So one test down, one more to go!  I take my next one on the 31st and hopefully I won't be so nervous because I'll actually know where I'm going this time :)

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