Work

I've been working my butt off at the day school and have become so exhausted lately.  I have absolutely no energy to do anything but the bare necessities, and keeping my house clean is unfortunately near  the bottom.  I go into work at 7:30 and leave at 6 or 6:30 and maybe once or twice a week take a lunch.  I do get to take off every Wednesday, but that's when I make appointments and take care of everything else that I need to get done.  I feel like I never have time for anything.  I would really love to have a maid come in at least once a week to stay on top of the cleaning, I can handle the dishes and laundry and keeping everything picked up, but that's about it.  When I come home I immediately start to make supper and then have absolutely no interest in doing anything else except letting my body and mainly my brain relax.

Ok, complaining over with ;)  I love my job.  There is not a minute in the day when I'm here and just wish I could leave and go home.  This is actually starting to feel like my second home.  I really think it took me leaving to realize how much I enjoyed it.  The stress that made me give up the first time is still there, and comes in full force at times, but somehow this time it's different.  I know what stressors to expect and know how to handle them and also know that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel when I feel completely buried. 

These past four months I feel like I've really been tested.  I've had to deal with issues like reporting a suspected abuse case (still bothers me to this day), standing my ground with absurd parents who tell me they're going to punch a kid in the face while yelling in MY face, calling the ambulance to the center, and on top of everything we were put on corrective action a couple of weeks after I started (many things led up to this before I was back) which does not help with the stress.  Normally, our state rep will come out to do an inspection annually or if there's any type of investigation that needs to be conducted they'll come out if needed.  Well ever since we were put on corrective action our rep is at our center once, if not twice, a month.  And she's not a nice lady.  She's super strict about everything, so we're kept under a microscope for the next few months until this is all over with, then I'll be able to breath again!

But...the kids.  The kids make it all better.  I know that they're a big reason for why I love what I do.  There's no way in heck that I could manage everything at my job while working in a building full of adults.  Whenever I need a break, I sneak off into one of the rooms and just hold a baby, or read a toddler a book, or my favorite thing, go and give my baby girl a hug and a kiss.  When I start weighing the pros and cons, the pros definitely outweigh the cons this time around :)