Life with a full time job and two kids

Exhausted.  That's what its like.

My day starts at 4:45 a.m. and is literally nonstop until 9 p.m.  The absolutely only time I have to myself is my conference period from 10:35-11:35 each day.  And that's usually filled with contacting parents, meetings, or getting things ready in my classroom.  But the days that I don't have anything for that hour is sweet bliss! 

I'm writing this post because one day in the far future I want to read it and remember how tired and worn out I felt every day.  I also want my kids to read it and know how hard Colton and I worked for them.  I'm sure when I look back I'll say to myself "it wasn't that bad."  But now...right now...I feel like I can't keep my head above water!  It's madness!  But I kind of like it.

My day is filled with children ALL DAY.  If you've ever been around kids you know that they're exhausting.  I now have 20 kindergartners who keep me on my toes all day.  I'm still not sure how I ended up with all of these lovely (but oh so challenging) kids.  A normal classroom has one or two desks that are separated from the rest of the class because those desks belong to kids who can't keep their hands to themselves, get too distracted by everything going on etc.  Well I have six of those desks, that's right...SIX.  I feel like the majority of the day I'm just trying to keep them in order, but I guess that's kindergarten.  I do know that they're much better since I've been back.  I've had multiple unannounced sit ins from the vice principal and principal this week to check up on them.  They've told me that I'm doing a great job and the class looks SO much better.  So that makes me feel awesome of course!

I do feel a little guilt for not being able to spend all day with my own babies though.  I don't get to spend much time with them during the week, only a few hours in the evening.  But somehow it makes the time that I do spend with them so much more special.  My house is an absolute wreck, and I don't even care.  I'm on the verge of hiring someone to come in and keep it clean and picked up because it's just that bad.  When I'm home, all of my attention is given to my kids and that will NEVER change.

I keep my mom's words in my head constantly, "this time of your life is crunch time, but it won't last forever."